i have a lot of annoyances...
my first problem is about this boy i have a huge huge
HUGE crush on. he's amazing and perfect in every way (to
me anyway) but i can't tell if he likes me or not back!
sometimes the things he does makes me thinks he likes me
and i'm WAY too shy to ask him, which brings me to my
next problem....i'm overly shy and i care way too much
what people think...i've gotten better though, but still
i hate myself sometimes for caring so much, they're just
my fellow high school students, why should i care? i
have no idea.
the next annoyance is that i over-sleep almost every
morning. my mom yells at me every morning, but i just
can't wake up. i try to go to bed early, but i'm laying
in my bed thinking of a million things and it just keeps
me up. WHY CAN'T I SLEEP?
my next annoyance is what i'm afraid will happen. my
best friend of almost my whole life has a new bf she's
been dating for about 2 months and they seem completly
in love, i'm happy for her but i am afraid that she will
become so overly obsessed with him she won't want to
hang out anymore and all that stuff. i know i should
have more faith in her, but im just scared.
next --- i wish i was skinnier. plain and simple. im
trying really hard to lose weight and if it doesnt work
im going to be mad as anything!! also sad, upset,
feeling hatred towards myself.
my next problem is this one kid at school (lets call him
johnny, its not really his name though) well johnny is
some kid 2 grades below me who is just a weirdo kid, but
hes one of those has a lot of friends weirdo's, well hes
called me fat before a lot of times to my face at school
and it embarasses the heck out of me considering i could
be worse (fat-wise) and this kid is huge himself!! and
he's good friends with my brother and they have a class
together and im sure he talks about me all the time to
my brother. in the bad way. UGH.
i am also annoyed by the face that: i dont think im as
pretty as a lot of other girls, that my brother never
lifts the seat when he pees, that he leaves his dirty
laundry all over the place in the bathroom, when it
rains, that im a senior in high school and im scared of
college, that i have hard times telling the truth a lot,
that i wrote so much in this and i will be annoyed if it
doesnt get used, i will also be annoyed if its too long,
that im not as popular as i want 2 be, that i cant
spell, that im lazy, that my parents like my brother
more, that i have a HUGE HUGE jealously problem but i
wont admit it, that i love food too much, that im not
good at anything, that i dont have a car or my license
yet but its coming, that christmas is only once a year,
that a girl i dont get along with lives near me, when
people dont text me back.
thats it..thank you for listening, i really enjoy the
site.
--- someb0dy.